I Beg You to Have Patience by Caeden Wigston

I Beg You to Have Patience examines the relationship I have with my Protestant Christian upbringing, my past self and the values I was taught to believe in. Cognitively, I unpack the eighteen years of indoctrination I experienced before moving out of my childhood home. The title I Beg You to Have Patience comes from Letters to a Young Poet written by Rainer Maria Rilke. Concerned with the relationship between oneself and the ultimately unanswered question of the past and future, Rilke poses the idea of simply living out your life free from the weight of life's mysteries and letting the rest of your existence fall into place naturally. The images indirectly address themes that are brought up in the poem and are intermixed with personal objects and text as well as excerpts from my mother’s bible from when she was in her twenties, similar in age to myself. It is from Rilke's understanding that I allow myself to live through my internal questions, seeing them as locked doors in need of a key, instead of an unbreakable barrier.